Losing Weight and Keeping it off!

I am planning to lose 50 pounds. Caleb and I started to workout three days ago.

To help myself and caleb I am not going to buy anymore junk food. If I do it will only be one thing that is junk.

New addition to our family

On Sept 16th John Riley was born. He was 8lbs and 13oz. His length was 21in. Has lots of hathat was dark, now it is lighting up. There is some red in it... Caleb's happy about that. Thankfully he is a really good baby. He doesn't fuss all that much only if he is hungry or wants to be held.

Now he is 10 or even 11 pounds.

He is starting to find his voice, cooing and oohing. Riley is a very smiley baby, He also gives very worried looks which is really adorable.

Caleb loves being a dad. This past week he was sick so he hasn't been able to hold Riley all that much. He said to me "I haven't had much time with our son.

I want to spend time with him." Caleb is always trying to get Riley to smile or talk back to him. He isn't afraid to change a dirty diaper even. (Yay I don't have to change all the diapers myself.)

I love my Family and thankful that I have a really good husband who helps me out.

Baking time and memories

Yesterday was my birthday. I made banana bread and then I thought I would try to make a cake as well. Both of them turned out really good. My sweet husband bought me a video camera and also a video game. That night he took me to Texas road house. We both had the ribs and I believe I got sick from my meal. I have been feeling rather sick today. Food doesn't look good to me at all.

Over all I had a wonderful birthday...Yae I am 22 this year. It is crazy. That means my dad will be 62 this year.

Today is my Grandpa Harward's birthday. I sure miss him, he was a wonderful man. What I remember is he had a green thumb. He could plant anything, you name it he could grow it. I remember visiting and eating sweet corn on the cob. Oh it was sooo good. Also his peaches they were heavenly. His flower garden was so beautiful and smelled like you were in a meadow.

I tried making my sisters éclair cake and its good but I halved the recipe. Next time I want to make it better than i did this time.

I love the outdoors to see what beautiful this world is. Most of the time I just sit at home reading a book. Or seeing what else I can do to improve my cooking skills.(Now that I have to cook... :)...) Traveling is something I do enjoy. Seeing places that I have never been. Spending time with people that I love getting to know them better.

Caleb loves to go fishing and hunting. Loves to go out and have fun with dad and brother as well.

He is always wanting to go out and do something. He is an outdoors man. He loves skateboarding. Always trying to make others happy. Trying to make someone smile when they are having a bad day. Works hard at anything he does. I married a really wonderful man.

Caleb and I are happy and loving life. We love taking adventures together.

We are taking another chapter in our life by starting a family. Finding out that we are having a baby boy. Knowing what we are having made both of us really happy. My due date is in sept.

Right now Caleb is working at Kyani. Its a company that sells blueberry juice and other health products. I am working with barnes and noble.

Choices

There are so many people that don't know what to do with their lives. They could start college and go into a degree more than once. Growing up is so scary to most but yet they wanted to grow up so fast. Starting a young age wishing to do the same thing as older siblings. In this world there are things that could scare a person to go into hiding and not wanting to know what is going on around them. Some just ignore what they have to take responsibilities for. So yeah most people don't know what they want but they keep going on in this world hoping for a better life.

Finding happiness or who they want to be is hard to do. Wanting change bad enough can be achieved.

As warm wind blows through the trees, can't stop thinking how beautiful. Clouds moving above in the sky; showing their radiant colors in the sun. Flowers giving the smell of spring that you could almost taste what it could be. Just a perfect day outside nothing can touch the feeling that comes. Dark, cold clouds cover the sun. Moist droplets of rain fall down covering every corner of the earth. Everything can change in one second. Only finding the place is turning into a nightmare. Wishing the place was like before; warm and comforting..

Life can change like that, everything is going great and boom everything you worked for is gone.

It a choice as well; of how things go. Life could go to ruins and fall to peices. Picking up the peices can be really hard after a fall. Can the peices be picked up? Is all gone and impossible to fix?

In life there are things that get in our way where we need to move. Like a death in the family or even unexpected sickness. There are many things that can put us down. Even ourselfs can get in the way; of what we can do with ourselves. Growing up isn't the easiest thing but we all have to do it. We all can do anything we wanted to do. There are some thoughts that come to mind. Am I really that quailfied to do that? I can't do that I am not smart. Putting ones self down all the time doesn't help ones self esteem. We have all done this in our lives. All that needs to be done is believing in ones self.